...and a sunset couldn't save me now

2008-03-23T12:41:00.004-04:00

Happy Easter!

Hare Yeshua Hare Yeshua
Yeshua Yeshua Hare Hare
Hare Yahweh Hare Yahweh
Yahweh Yahweh Hare Hare

2007-05-24T11:17:00.001-04:00

resurrection in a teacup

Mon Coeur, Pour Tous

2006-07-14T20:12:00.000-04:00

My new posting arena.

Mon Coeur, Pour Tous

Learn it, love it.

:-)

2006-07-13T12:34:00.000-04:00

AP European History Score: 5

How did this happen?

2006-07-10T20:45:00.000-04:00

I woke up in a funk. And I've been there ever since.

Today I bought some art supplies, and yesterday I hung out with people. And the day before that, I hung out with people. And the day before that, I hung out with people. And it's people, people, people, and summer reading. And not getting my painting started. And feeling blah. I am so unproductive. And stupid. And not good. And...and...yuck.

And I promise I will not post again until I have something good to say.

2006-07-10T16:50:00.000-04:00

I just bought oil paints!!!!

And I'm going to use them!!!!

This is so exciting!!!!

2006-07-07T13:48:00.000-04:00

Trying to decide if I should put my sexual orientation on my myspace or not. Because if I do, it would be news to some people, and coming out online is so sad.

2006-07-06T23:23:00.000-04:00

I bought magnetic poetry today. Finally.

Also, and this is big...I am abandoning my current art project, as I feel it is weighing me down. Perhaps I will return to the idea, but for now, I will strip the canvas bare and make it ready to accept a new piece.

I'm not sure what I will do yet, but it will be fun.

2006-07-03T18:26:00.000-04:00

Back from the beach-- it was really hot, and the water was really cold. I just went to Banana Republic, and I got an on-the-spot interview. Wish me luck! (And knock on wood!)

I have nothing more to say, and I'm not going to be one of those bloggers, so goodbye for now. :-)

2006-06-28T22:59:00.000-04:00

This is a tribute to all of the albums that, had I the money, I would purchase. But because I do not, I had to borrow them from my friend Mel.

Automatic for the People by R.E.M.
Push Barman To Open Old Wounds by Belle and Sebastian
Say I Am You by The Weepies
Room Noises by Eisley
Decadence by Head Automatica
This Island by Le Tigre
Under My Skin by Avril Lavigne (just to have it)
Swiss Army Romance by Dashboard Confessional (ditto)

Guys, I love you. Sorry I don't have the cash...I'd love to own you, most of your CDs are very pretty. So think of this tribute as your payment.

2006-06-27T21:35:00.000-04:00

I am bored.

I got the new Regina Spektor album, and it kicks major ass.

I am getting up way early tomorrow to go to yoga.

This is what my life has been reduced to.

2006-06-24T17:52:00.000-04:00

I think I am going to make a LiveJournal, or a Xanga, or a MySpace.

2006-06-22T20:25:00.000-04:00

I am obscenely excited about seeing Mel, Chris, and the two Caitlins tomorrow.

Like, you have no idea. I don't know why, but I just am overwhelemingly hyper about this.

In other news, today was a lazy waste.

2006-06-21T17:55:00.000-04:00

I am such a terrible person.

It is 5:49 PM. I am still in my pajamas.

I haven't done ANYTHING today, except order things online for my mom and read a few chapters of a book (not for school, no way!). I even skipped showering in the morning, opting instead to shower tonight.

SO. LAZY. SO. BAD.

I should be painting or cleaning or calling people or writing or making coffee or...or....something. Anything.

But all I can do is sit here. I even watched some of Bring It On today. And made English Muffin pizzas.

Oh God, I'm so unbelievably lazy and fat.

2006-06-21T14:10:00.000-04:00

Summer is officially here. 15,000 Neo-Druids gathered at Stonehenge last night and greeted the dawn with flutes, drumming, and probably a lot of fertility rituals.

I so want to be there.

I really got into A Million Little Pieces this morning, and I felt physically ravaged after reading. I felt like I had gone through some of what James went through, and I could feel my mouth ache, my stiches stretch, and my disillusionment set in.

I can't believe people who discredit James Frey. Fuck. You.

xxx

2006-06-16T10:16:00.000-04:00

Rufus Wainwright at Carnegie Hall last night. He sang Judy Garland.

These things are always such a blur. At least it's a pretty blur.

I'm not entirely sure yet, but I think his performance was epic.

2006-06-15T13:03:00.000-04:00

Rufus Wainwright tonight.

I can barely breathe.

I picked out my clothes, listened to Judy and Ruffie non-stop, and wrote him a letter. THe letter is a bit messy because I had a lot to say and only a tiny sheet to say it on, and also I was a bit nervous as you could probably imagine, so its a bit shaky. But I think it's a pretty good letter!

Oh, Rufus. I have a date with you tonight. Oh dear.

2006-06-14T22:17:00.000-04:00

1- Abercrombie and Fitch cologne
2- Book on Tantra
3- Souffle cookbook
4- Sparkly ring
5- Flowery brooch
6- Frenchy scarf
7- Replacement sunglasses

Yes. I bought a lot tonight. And yes, I used the debit card. And yes, I am on the verge of a problem.

ALSO.

Jeff Buckley

Listen to "Lover, You Should've Come Over." It will change your life.

2006-06-14T15:52:00.000-04:00

Paris, Nice, and Saint-Paul were beautiful. My time in France was life-altering and unfogettable.

The world looks different after you travel to Europe; for one, Europe stops being a fantasy/dream/pictaresque paradise, and starts being a real place with real people living lives. And you are bombarded by this enormous sense of a past, of culture, of intentional beauty, of people using their time on earth to really live and accomplish things. And then you come back to the USA and you feel really disturbed by how much consumerism and TV are the only "culture" we have, how everyone only speaks one language, and how sheltered and disconnected we are from the world. We see Europe as faraway, but that's only because we are such a large country floating alone in the middle of the ocean, and we don't have the world as a direct neighbor. And it really makes everyone else in the world seem like some fiction or something. And our culture, as a result, is completely ignorant and self-focused.

It sounds extreme, but it is how I felt when I came home. It was like pulling the plug on reality, on the world, and climbing into a tiny box filled with shopping malls.

You don't understand how artificial life is in America until you visit the rest of the world.

2006-06-13T15:19:00.000-04:00

MELANIE ASHTON YOU ARE THE BEST PERSON IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD, AND EVERYONE IS A TOTAL LOSER COMPARED TO YOU, YOU ARE THE SHIT AND YOU SHOULD KNOW IT, MELANIE IS THE ONLY SUPERAWESOMEMAJORLYRADHUMANBEING
...EVER! PERIOD! END OF STORY!

Thanks for commenting me, everyone. I really appreciate it.

...

Mel, you are my favorite Ashton.

2006-06-03T21:17:00.000-04:00

Packing for Paris; it's one of the most surreal things ever.

This time tomorrow I will probably be in the airport in Frankfurt, Germany, waiting for my connecting flight.

This will be my last post for a while...if you read it, please leave me a comment...a really long and irrelevant one if at all possible.

I want to come home to like 20 comments :)

I really wish you all were here!!!!!

That means you, Melanie, Sara, Christiana, Jessa, Rose, Maria, Caitlin, Alex, and Zac.

And all of you have to leave me comments. Au revoir, friends!

I'll send my love from the City of Light.

2006-06-02T22:40:00.000-04:00

Today was a great day!

First, my Judy Garland album came, and I've been enjoying the music so much!!
Second, I hung out with Melanie, Caitlin (Mc), and Sara tonight...it was awesome.
Third, I got amazing sunglasses.
Fourth, I got a kickass haircut today.
Fifth, I am going to Paris in two days.
Sixth, my Rufus concert is coming up, too.

How was your day?

2006-06-01T16:07:00.000-04:00

Happy Gay Pride Month!

2006-05-31T20:17:00.000-04:00

I had yoga today.

OK...

My yoga classes typically consist of 50-something-year-old women in spandex doing downward-facing-dogs and falling over alot.

So today I go to class after two weeks of not practicing. I decide to take a new class, with a new teacher, just to give it a shot.

And everyone in it is AMAZING.

So there I am, shaking and struggling, sometimes not even magaging to get the pose. And we're doing all new poses, so none of the ones I'm good at are part of today's lesson. And I'm just thinking "Damnit, Geoff! If you had only been doing yoga regularly these last few weeks, you could be doing just as good as these women!"

Bad luck enough? Oh, no. Of course not. Today is also the only day in the history of yoga ever that someone not menopausal takes the class with me. So today, completely randomly and for no reason other than to spite me, a very attractive teenaged guy is situated DIRECTLY behind me, and he gets to watch me suck terribly.

Great.

What the hell did I do to deserve this kind of karma?

And of course, once I regain my strength it will be all old ladies again.

2006-05-29T18:06:00.000-04:00

dramatic (adj.) - sensational in appearance or thrilling in effect, arresting or forceful

Today I realized that I am a dramatic person. What I mean is that I live a dramatic life. In fact, it's the only way I could imagine living. I dress dramatically, I think dramatically, I have dramatic emotions. My happiness is euphoric and discontent is a crisis involving spiraling pits of doom. I even drive dramatically-- which incidentally may lead to my dramatic demise, and the demise of all oncoming Mercedes-Benzes.

Seriously, lanes are for tools.

It's not my fault if you can't adapt to having an art-eest on the road. Maybe you should take the bus or something.

2006-05-27T14:48:00.000-04:00

music is so amazing, and i take it for granted too much.

i take everything for granted too much, especially beauty.

And I'm an OCDer, so that means i don't make decisions and i am never satisfied. But I don't mind overly much, it's to be expected-- I am an intricate being in a contented world.

But I'm being deceptive. Despite these bitter clips, things are actually pretty good. Holy Ghost is permanently a part of my past, I just bought new clothing, I'm going out on the town with Melanie tonight, and a Judy Garland album is on its way to my house. I think I'll live.

2006-05-22T21:11:00.000-04:00

The DaVinci Code made 224 million dollars...
And 500,000,000 souls!

...that's way better than Spy Kids 2. (14 souls).

2006-05-21T21:47:00.000-04:00

Some people are just amazing. Like, what the hell? How can you be that??

2006-05-21T21:29:00.000-04:00

yesterday

chris' 16th birthday party.
awesome.
really cool people who were lots of fun.
we're all definitely going to the beach one summer.

today

wrote alice walker poem on my arm
ordered new headphones
decided which judy garland recording to purchase

2006-05-18T21:53:00.000-04:00

SCORE.

2 out of 3 papers finished.

1st one was on feminism. 2nd was was on the existential allegory in one flew over the cuckoo's nest. 3rd one will be on yogic principles, I think Ashtanga Raja Yoga.

This is like Christmas for me.

2006-05-17T22:04:00.000-04:00

I just wrote a mediocre paper on an awesome lady...Ms. Mary Wollstonecraft!!!!

I know it's going to be a pain to read, what with the margins, but I'm posting it here. Deal with it.

Here it is:

Sowing Seeds of Change

Perhaps the most important figure in Western civil rights, Mary Wollstonecraft is a key matriarch of social activism. The first feminist author, she claimed that women have been oppressed by men "since Adam downward" (Gunther, 171), that women and men deserve equal education and political power in society, and that marriage by the state was nothing more than the "legalized prostitution" of women. With such bold statements, her work would be considered radical even by today's standards. Add to this the time frame of her writings--mid-eighteenth century in Victorian England--and it is easy to see why Mary Wollstonecraft is understood as the mother of feminism, and the source of the fire that continues to drive the movement even to this day.

Mary Wollstonecraft wrote her first book, Thoughts on the Education of Daughters, in 1787. In it, she attacked the lack of sufficient educational opportunities for young women. She goes on to condemn the absence of decent careers for women, and calls for women to claim a place in traditionally masculine professions. Her second major work was A Vindication of the Rights of Men, written in 1790. Based on Enlightenment ideals, this book echoed the sentiments of John Locke and French Revolutionists in its assertion of universal rights. She criticized the state for impinging on the individual's right to make choices, and she demanded a society more amenable to the equality of all participants.

The assertions of human equality and rights made in A Vindication of the Rights of Men provided a base for Wollstonecraft's next work, A Vindication of the Rights of Women. Arguably her most important work, this text served as the first feminist writing in the history of Western civilization. In this book, Wollstonecraft laid out the overarching premise that women and men are fundamentally equal beings. An extremely nuanced and articulate work, A Vindication of the Rights of Women discussed everything from citizenship to early gender theory. Wollstonecraft maintained that the minds of women are no different than those of men. The only difference, Wollstonecraft explained, is that society has conditioned women to behave in a certain manner. "Feminine manners," Wollstonecraft argued, are subordination, unintelligence, innocence, and objectification, and have been instilled into women, often as their only form of "education." Such gender-centric society demeaned everyone's dignity, she argued. Outraged, Wollstonecraft demanded incorporating women into the standard educational system. She passionately exclaimed, "Let an enlightened nation then allow women to share the advantages of education and government with man, see whether they will become better as they grow wiser and become free," (Wollstonecraft, 151).

Elaborating on her notion that the only reason women are inferior is because they have been instructed socially to act in such a manner, Wollstonecraft also attacked the institution of marriage. Calling it "legalized prostitution" because of its stipulations at the time, she demanded that women refuse to participate in such a false union. She pleaded for an egalitarian marriage under the state, where women are able to make decisions and own property, instead of being property. Through this, Wollstonecraft also laid the origins of feminist sexual politics; by labeling marriage as prostitution in coincidence with her dissertations on the objectification of women, her work has inspired further works on female sexual liberation from the archetypes of childbearer and homemaker.

Wollstonecraft did more than just reveal the social scourging of her gender, however; she charged women to change their society. Mary Wollstonecraft called for a "revolution in female manners." She wanted women to cease accepting the gender-based identity society tried to force upon them, instead acknowledging their fundamental equality with men. Wollstonecraft was a revolutionary in the truest sense. An impassioned and outspoken woman, her writing laid the groundwork for women's liberation. Her work was not weak or elementary, either. It did not merely "open the door" for feminism, or help to get the movement started. Rather, it was a bold and extensive collection of arguments; Wollstonecraft presented a fully maturated "radical feminism" through her work, which required no clarification or expansion by subsequent authors. Her ideas have remained essentially intact through the ages, and are considered by contemporary feminists to be as relevant today as they were in 1792.

Mary Wollstonecraft's ideas were the source of the early suffragist movements in the UK as well as in America, as well as the "second-wave feminism" of the late 60s, the period in time where pay inequity, violence against women, and gender roles were brought into the mainstream political scene. Mary Wollstonecraft's work even impacts modern feminism. Her sexual politics is mirrored in modern feminist leaders like Andrea Dworkin and Gloria Steinem. The National Organization for Women, the largest and most recognizable bastion of feminism in America, reflects her radical spirit of unadulterated equality. In fact, nearly all contemporary feminist thought stems from the basic tenets presented in Mary Wollstonecraft's writings.

In addition to impacting my society, Mary Wollstonecraft has affected my life on an individual level. Feminism is an integral part of my daily life. I regularly read Bitch, a feminist magazine written as a response to pop culture. I listen to various feminist musicians, such as Le Tigre, Tegan and Sara, and Indigo Girls. I routinely bring up and discuss feminist issues with my peers. I have even spent the past six months writing, memorizing, and finally delivering a ten-minute oration on modern feminism in the National Forensics League, speaking at various competitions, including Harvard University's Invitational. In the future, I hope to volunteer with Planned Parenthood to help protect women's reproductive rights, as well as rally for gender equity. Feminism matters to me, and my passion would not be possible without the early campaigning and ferocious writings of Mary Wollstonecraft.

A firebrand in a time of cordiality, Mary Wollstonecraft was more than a "starting point" for feminism, she was the creator of feminist theory itself. Her writings were evocative, articulate, and intellectually compelling. Her call for revolution was heard by early suffragists, who heeded her words and created a massive movement toward women's rights. Mary Wollstonecraft is the origin of nearly all feminist theory, even as it exists today, and her impact on society extends into our contemporary world. Her powerful statements resound in our society--and my own personal life-- and will keep on doing so as feminists continue to fight for the equality that Wollstonecraft envisioned over two-hundred years ago.

2006-05-16T21:35:00.000-04:00

i had a mental breakdown today.

1- I hate my school. it's not even mine anymore, i disowned it.

2- my family is the most stigmatic assembly of people ever.

3- homophobia has to go. love is love, get over it.

4- ugh. end of year coming so fast.

5- overwhelming amounts of unhappy things.

6- overwhelming amounts of happy things.

...oh, and there's a genocide going on in Sudan. By the way.

2006-05-14T18:03:00.000-04:00

i'm poor. will someone buy me nice mala beads?
and a 1971 VW Van and a lot of paint to put murals on it?

and can we make all of the people less emotionally dramatic?
that'd be cool.

2006-05-10T19:45:00.000-04:00

don't ever change, you hungry little bashful hound

I have realized that I need to be more fabulous. Ghost has worn down my fabulosity and enshrouded me in some lackluster encasing. So stale. But this coat of powdered apathy will be shucked off of me in but nine most hopefully brisk days, and then as Christ transfigured before his disciples, so will I transfigure before you. And I'll radiate so purely.

So clean and new, but vaguely reminiscent of the old. My ancient glory tarnished as silver is, that is, hidden yet unchanged behind a smear of black.

We'll mix the wines and throw them into new wineskins, and make the old wineskins into belts, which we will wear around our waists, so proud as we say "behold how these thin strands sway, as though inhabited by the Maker herself." and we will remember. And we will fashion idols of gold and song, and throw exploding flowers at my feet.

And that is how my seventh reincarnation will be.

2006-05-09T20:28:00.000-04:00

today is a good day because

1- I had yoga.
2- Kathy Griffin has a new special on tonight.

2006-05-07T20:59:00.000-04:00

my white tea tastes like hot water. ugh. underbrewing sucks. but the format is coming out with a new album on july 11 and that's really cool so im not totally aloof.

neat weekend; went to dinner theatre with caitlin friday and then out to newtown with tom saturday. and i bought a disposable fountain pen. yeah, do they actually make those? I'm still not sure.

2006-05-02T15:38:00.000-04:00

we had "Diversity Day" today at school.

it was a good attempt, I must say, but my school is still a haven for racism, sexism, and homophobia. and making kids watch heath and jake make out on a screen, however entertaining their reactions may be, will not change their prejudiced brains.

i am so ready for Solebury.

2006-04-26T23:01:00.000-04:00

I just came back from seeing Ralph Nader speak. He is an incridibly inspiring individual. I am so ready to start a revolution. And he signed my book, "To Geoff, For Justice, Ralph Nader."

:)

Today also was the Day of Silence, which I completely forgot about, goddamnit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-25T21:13:00.000-04:00

art show tonight. My "Contemporary is the New Modern" triptych was nice, and a bunch of my old pieces were up.

Shpongle is good, too. Thank you Jim for showing me their light.

2006-04-24T19:34:00.000-04:00

I feel like I have been thrown repeatedly into a solid concrete wall. thump, thump. thump!

my monday

went for a job interview
lacked my homework in most of my classes
was tired
had no free periods

hung up my art (the only good thing)

I need to be more creative.

2006-04-23T14:42:00.000-04:00

16th birthday

it was fun

i am not going to attempt to describe it accurately. it was the nouveau fab five, and there was rain. that's really all you need to know. also, melanie is the queen of giftgiving. and i have great friends.

so so wet. i am soaked for ever.

-- I swear to god, I can't go to school tomorrow. I am thoroughly disgusted by the mere idea of it.

2006-04-20T21:11:00.000-04:00

birthday in two days.
16 in two days.
permit in two days.

sdfnerjbgfer;d'vjljv'kldsk;ls/j;l

and mel is really cool and creative, but she spoiled an amazing gift possibility, and i am emotionally bereft now. way to go, mel.

=)

i feel really nervous right now. I'm very ADD.

TODAY

was nothing special.

2006-04-19T17:42:00.000-04:00

my faith in humanity is commonly tested by humans themselves. what ever happened to diversity, and intelligence, and free throught?

ugh. hgp. i leave positive marks only. you've had me for two years-- don't you know that by now??

Alice Walker is my lover.

"No person is your friend who demands your silence, or denies your right to grow. "

"Any God I ever felt in church I brought in with me."

*many more of her words, so lovely*

2006-04-18T23:11:00.000-04:00

11:09 PM
3.20 pages of bullshit written.
as george bush muses,
"mission accomplished."

see previous post, my confused birdies.

i am going to write some impromptu haikus about my day:

this tea is no good
too bitter because the bag
was ignored by me

sweaty palms on mats
slip fall ouch bleeding damn you
downward facing dog

some people plan, i
always do life last minute
sorry i forgot

i should be working
but i can't stop clicking things.
oops is that some porn?

fat men run commerce
loud and on cells they're scary
i want a real job

you read all of these?
i love you more than choc'late
comment me you bitch

2006-04-18T21:56:00.000-04:00

10:01 PM.
Lethargic.
Paper to write.
Due tomorrow.
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh.

2006-04-17T12:18:00.000-04:00

Waiting for Melanie to pick up her goddamn phone. She is like, the most frustrating person to try to make plans with, ever.

Went to NYC over the weekend. Saw Rent, walked around Central Park, and went to the MoMa. It was a fairly satisfying occurance. And we somehow ended up with a room in the executive levels, so we got our own lounge and such-- pretty neato.

In light of the world's inability to accomodate my OCD, I have decided that I will forevermore be sitting under a tree in Central Park with my headphones on. You can visit if you want, but don't expect me to be cordial or anything like that--you may well have interrupted a good song or something.

2006-04-13T22:57:00.000-04:00

Geoff's Life: The Soundtrack

Opening credits: A Different Kind of Love Song by Cher
Waking up: Agnus Dei by Rufus Wainwright
Average day: Ghost of Corporate Furure by Regina Spektor
First date: Know Your Onion! by The Shins
Falling in love: Vision of a Kiss by The B52s
Love scene: Save Tonight by Eagle Eye Cherry
Fight scene: Judas' Death by Andrew Lloyd Webber in Jesus Christ Superstar
Breaking up: Mary-Anne by Adam Richman
Getting back together: Into the Dark by Ben Lee
Secret love: Heart Stopper by Emiliana Torrini
Life's okay: Yellow by Coldplay
Coming out: Proud by Tegan and Sara
Finding God: The Mystic's Dream by Loreena McKennitt
Mental breakdown: In The Waiting Line by Zero 7
Driving: Light Pollution by Bright Eyes
Learning a lesson: Let Your Troubles Roll By by Carbon Leaf
Deep thought: Infinity by Inara George
Flashback: Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls
Partying: TKO by Le Tigre
Happy dance: Deceptacon by Le Tigre
Regreting: If I Laugh by Cat Stevens
Long night alone: Dante's Prayer by Loreena McKennitt
Death scene: Hallelujah by Rufus Wainwright
Closing credits: The Transfiguration by Sufjan Stevens

2006-04-13T17:08:00.000-04:00

happy spring break, tout le monde!
today i painted and organised my room, and i am going to yoga in half an hour. tomorrow i'm off off off....to NYC! I'm going to the MoMa, as well as to see Rent. It's a pre-emptive birthday gift via ma madre and my padre.

Is anyone else torn over spring? How lovely it is indeed! and yet how those beautiful blossoms make your nose itch and water like nothing else ever.

coming soon: geoff's innermost beliefs...on the web!

2006-04-11T20:58:00.000-04:00

this is me in five years.

2006-04-09T21:16:00.000-04:00

the bradford pears are blossoming

I went to Jacques Fabert's gallery opening with Caitlin and Melanie on Saturday. We had a good time, but Jacques' explanation of his work somewhat struck a bad chord with me and has sparked a desire within me to create my own counter-art. And I will have my opening at the same gallery. Yeah Jacques, you may be 81, but you're so going down.

2006-04-07T12:09:00.000-04:00

The local news. I swear to god.

"In today's news, 1700-year-old documents were found that shed controversial light on the life of Jesus. But our big story today is 'soggy friday'-- it's raining. Let's go to our weatherman for more details."

...

Caitlin took me to a Coldplay concert. It was wonderful!! It was a really good show, even with an annoying butthead behind us and The Verve opening for them :-/ The show was innovative, creative, dynamic...and they played Talk!!!

And, in their spirit and my own, make trade fair.

2006-04-05T22:16:00.000-04:00

haircut.
tomorrow is the coldplay concert that caitlin is taking me to.
!!!

2006-04-02T22:12:00.000-04:00

8th & Ocean is my new favourite show that I don't like.

The title song makes me swoon, and I sit through the rather boring show in order to watch all the pretty people. But the story? Non-existant. Don't even bother.

2006-03-27T18:38:00.000-05:00

I got a lamp today :)

It's tall and thin and red and has beads. It's a rogue gypsy lamp that I found hiding in a corner of Pier One. I also bought a green tea while I was out. And a can of soup.

Went to Forensics State competition...even though I didn't make the cut to semifinals (84 contestants, 12 make it to semis), I still did really well, and I am way proud of myself.

oh my, this green tea is flavored with orange extract. YUM. suprises are nice.

2006-03-21T22:14:00.000-05:00

I have discovered free podcasts from iTunes.

:-O

Today I took a "big kids" (aka adult) yoga class. it was infinitely better than the teen class i've been taking-- I have decided to drop the teen one and take the real, all-age one, with all of the fat ladies and the crazy granola-eaters like myself.

And...I got an iMac!! My friend Zach gave it to me, for free. It's lime green! It looks like this:

= D

Yeah, I feel pretty blessed by the Universe, even if I am failing chemistry.

2006-03-18T13:53:00.000-05:00

Friday night with Melanie was energetic and nice...we are recognized in newtown by baristas and art curators--fantastic. =)

Today, I'm kind of doing homework, but mostly drinking water and listening to Ravi Shankar.

happy saint patrick's day!

2006-03-16T19:44:00.000-05:00

failed chem test.
broke my good headphones.
got rid of that really emo layout i had.

I wrote a prayer to the Universe in religion class today. We had to write prayers (assumedly to Jesus or God or whomever) asking to be able to resist sexual temptation. Mine was the best; coincidentally I think I'm also the only non-Christian in the class.

2006-03-14T20:25:00.000-05:00

I made the front page of an online paper for the first time. For real.

woo-hoo!

The article is my first one, entitled "Should Blacks Be Barred from Donating Blood?"

Check out all my articles here: heresthetruth.newsvine.com

haha! I made front page! First Newsvine, then The New York Times...

2006-03-13T16:36:00.000-05:00

i watched portions of brokeback mountain again. i am all but sobbing hysterically, soaking the carpet in my whimpers and wails.

today i got incredibly angry in the middle of sexuality and dating class. angry at the shit they were shoveling in our direction, the smugness and naivety of it all, just....everything.

i have decided to teach an "Alternative Chastity" class at the community college, because sex is not pure only when it is being performed conventionally by straight couples in lifelong marriages. Sex is sacred in and of itself, and all forms of sex should be revered as such. As far as "pure" or chaste sex, I offer four pillars which make for "sacred" sex, in no particular order--

1) Personal pleasure, gratification, and happiness.
2) An expression and sharing of love.
3) Giving another pleasure, gratification, and happiness.
4) Promoting unity.

*note that 100% lust-driven sex is acceptable, too. it just merely doesn't satisfy the concept of "chaste sex" and is therefore not an expression of love or of truth, which is okay.

*also note that this is the ideal, and because we live in a real world, sacred sex can vary in it's actual practice. just communicate with your partner (or partners-- that's ok, too), and make it something special. special = sacred . end of story. all sex is different, and the Church disgusts me in its attempts to codify all of it into one specific action, which is "sex" for all human instances. yuck.

be safe, be happy, be free.

free love!

2006-03-12T21:28:00.000-05:00

i spent ten and a half hours on saturday with melanie, walking around and enriching the culture of Richboro.

both of us are Broadway material, officially. we are replacing the current cast as Maureen and Joanne, and also as Angel and Collins. we will eventually make it a two-person show. it will be much better that way. and we'll change the name to La Vie Geoff et Melanie.

the mall sucks happiness out of days otherwise filled with ice cream and black lights. don't go there. instead, tape colin farrell to your wall and rejoice.

2006-03-10T18:23:00.000-05:00

took a train out to montauk today. i don't know why. i'm not an impulsive person.

cleaned up my room, downloaded eternal sunshine soundtrack, and was really bored in general. someone, wake me up!

oh, i forgot to mention, I AM GOING TO SOLEBURY. officially, officially, officially.
Starting next year, my life will be filled with literary magazine, amnesty international, art, coffee, new friends, gay-straight alliance meetings, environmental action corps activities, writing for the newspaper, and lots of other unspeakable joys.

unspeakable.

2006-03-09T21:57:00.000-05:00

I feel like crap and everybody is yelling.

Also, if I am too unhealthy to see my friends, how am I magically healthy enough to fulfill boring obligations?

2006-03-08T16:08:00.001-05:00

i have paint all over my shirt and pants from a wild half hour in the studio today.

i feel satisfied.

2006-03-07T20:20:00.000-05:00

it was one of those days.

those days where you just break it down and see what it's really worth to you. those days where everything is a beautiful, tumbling, crashing disaster. those days where the line between what matters and what really doesn't is drawn, but kind of sporadically.

those days are these days, and these days are some of the best days. not because they are good, just because they are interesting.

2006-03-06T20:46:00.000-05:00

I love Crash.

And I love Brokeback Mountain.

How the hell can you try to compare the two? It's like looking at a Van Gogh and a Dali and trying to decide which is "better."

Keep your damn Oscar, Crash, I'm giving Brokeback a Geoff Award.

2006-03-05T16:28:00.000-05:00

art party with chris, mel, and caitlin.

ahem.

first, chinese food with nice chinese people.
then, crazy swaggering with british accents.
then, art party.
then, an astounding man named Jim changing our lives.
then, eating potato bread in a circle of salt on the sidewalk.
then, walking Jeremy the cassette around the block.
then, the proclaimation of the Gospel of Froggie Christ.
then, home.

it was a pretty eventful night.
i liked it very much.

2006-03-04T12:19:00.000-05:00

West Side Story with Caitlin and Dana last night-- a very good show!

At intermission I got invited to someone's birthday party, within ten minutes of meeting them for the first time...always good. Her name is Frankie, and she is cool. Frankie, I'll be there!!

Et enfin, tonight I'm going to an Artists' Reception. oh-la-la.

2006-03-02T20:12:00.000-05:00

bill o'reilly just said on his show that he thinks high-schoolers are not smart enough to "think critically," particularly about politics.

as if we need another reason to hate bill o'reilly.

2006-03-02T12:19:00.000-05:00

an invisible snow day.
wow.

dreams do come true!

speaking of dreams, i just purchased tickets to see Rufus sing Judy Garland's 1961 Carnegie Hall Recording, at Carnegie hall in June. I got fourth row tickets.

and tomorrow i'm seein a play....weee!

life is so bi-polar with me; it's either a pit of death and sorrow, or it's frolicking through a field of 100,000 daisies. and today, it's daisy day.

2006-03-01T17:58:00.000-05:00

South Africa is the only country in the world which specifies sexual orientation as a point of non-discrimination in their definition of citizen rights.

That's pretty cool of them.

And we almost added discrimination against sexual orientation into our constitution.

Just, wow.

2006-02-28T20:08:00.000-05:00

^.^

i create so much undue stress about my life.
burns like old scabs ripped and drenched in alcohol.

2006-02-27T19:48:00.000-05:00

Ben Lee. That's all I'm saying.

2006-02-26T20:38:00.000-05:00

this is my third post today.
i have nothing to say.
except that my house is full of crazy people, or that i am a crazy person in a house of sane ones.

and also that mel's phone is working again, and that means that i can talk to her whenever i feel an urge to, assuming she leaves it on, which she won't.

and also that rufus is performing at carnegie hall in june and i will not be going, and if i do go, the seats will prolly be miserable. but it doesn't dampen me, because i love rufus and have seen him thrice so far.

and also that i love you.

2006-02-26T20:16:00.000-05:00

NeuroticLull: Hello Geoff.
NeuroticLull: How was your weekend dear?
Blacklotus121: like a giant Mounds bar; great at first, but then you overdose on coconut.
NeuroticLull: .....one of the best metaphors I've heard all weekend.

2006-02-26T16:28:00.000-05:00

indian food. melanie. hopscotch.
coffee. art. etc.

friday evenings are always such fun with melizzle.
saturday i got up and did forensics; tied for 3rd out of five people :-/
today i woke up and went to church. ugh.

lent is coming.

2006-02-23T20:03:00.000-05:00

i handed in a lab report today in chemistry, a class in which I already have a C+ --
it was missing the most essential part; i chose to leave it out because i thought she would take off points for not being professional (they were raw calculations).

i'll be getting a 50.

bjork is getting me through it, though. thank you, bjork. what a nice girl.

oh, and i have decided to boycott Project Runway until Project Jay is made into a series-- it's 1,000,000 times more entertaining and I love it and am extremely upset that it was only a one time special. do you hear me, Bravo?

2006-02-22T18:34:00.000-05:00

there are THREE hours of new Project Runway on tonight. in a row.
holy shit. i'm gonna die from joy.

and I'm competing with my feminist oratory at state qualifiers on saturday.
and I'm going out to dinner and coffee with mel on friday.

YES YES YES

despite it's crap, life has its moments.

2006-02-21T19:27:00.000-05:00

Harvard was good. I did OK, and I'm proud that I became so much better in just two days-- I really was working at it.

And Harvard isn't as cool as Princeton :( But Cambridge had good places to get tea, stationery, and indian food, which is always good.

There are so many cool people, and I want to be just like them. And I don't think that is good for my soul.

2006-02-15T21:34:00.000-05:00

Harvard in less than a day. Hoooooooly shit. I haven't memorized my speech yet, and as for working on delivery-- FORGET IT! But everyone has said I will be ok, and I think I will be ok, too. And I'm really excited to see Harvard and go to Boston and take photos and walk on campus and eat things and see people and even to compete.

wooooooooo!

and project runway is on tonight, which hopefully will quell the massive lump of nervous stress in my chest.

super-cool.

2006-02-13T20:05:00.000-05:00

I just came back from my first yoga class.

It's hard! But it is also very rewarding.

Aum.

2006-02-12T18:37:00.000-05:00

KoZmAn90: how do you hit a HUMAN when you are aiming for a quail...its a BIG difference
KoZmAn90: frickin republicans

2006-02-12T11:45:00.000-05:00

moo got cookies: it was a good time. we were all desolate without you, don't worry.
moo got cookies: but, at least you didn't do this: i asked one of jessa's friends to come with us, and she said, no, she was getting her cat put to sleep. well, to console her later in the evening, we called her, and she blatantly admitted she was at a party!
moo got cookies: we said a prayer for her cat and everything

ugh.

passed up a great night of literature and japanese food and ice cream and surpises with friends i haven't seen forever so that i could freeze to death with mel after ditching a pathetic poetry slam.

why can't we just be less stupid?

2006-02-08T21:06:00.000-05:00

i have a fauxhawk now =D

also, somehow my entire iTunes library has been DELETED.
ohmygodohmygodohmygod.

2006-02-06T18:22:00.000-05:00

feeling cool enough to let you know that i'm actually not.

i have a crapload of work...as a catharsis, i now will type my to-do list, directly from my homework book:

oratory
academic writing paper due
math- worksheet
- calculator
sex test
french
lab report
article on bush & education

ew.

2006-02-05T22:02:00.000-05:00

tonight has been sort of tough.

especially because there are other people younger than I doing all of the things I always thought I was capable of. they succeed while my sloth eats me alive.

among other things.

2006-02-04T23:59:00.000-05:00

chris and mel and i went to newtown this evening.

we found caitlin, and we got invited to an art party at a gallery. o0oh.

so it was a good night.

i organized my room and it feels good-- its midnight and im really not tired. so im going to read some of my book and then listen to music and things like that. uh huh.

2006-01-31T20:45:00.001-05:00

the state of the union is on in fifteen minutes. i'm so excited i can barely stand it-- it's going to be hysterical! i'm making popcorn.

msnbc has been making fun of bush and fox news for the last half hour <3

american idol is on at the same time as the state of the union.

bush divides america yet again.

i bet more people will watch idol. i'll be checking the ratings--
yay for american democracy.

2006-01-31T13:39:00.000-05:00

skipped school today.

a physical and mental health day, if you will.

i just finished a preliminary draft of my feminist oratory. its supersweet!

we're gonna ride the racecars, we're gonna dance on fire

2006-01-30T18:10:00.000-05:00

blog game i am enticed to play:

Put your playlist on random and put down your favorite lines from the first fifteen that play, no matter how embarrassing. Have everyone guess the song and artist. Don't be a bastard, read them and guess them--don't google them unless you're a totally uncreative person unable to be funny when you dont know something ;)

ps if i don't get comments then i am shutting this blog down.

1) Well there's an obvious attraction to the path of least resistance in your life/there's an underestimated and impatient little girl raising her hand

2) Don't even try and find a line this time, it's fine/darling, you're still divine

3) Must it take a life for hateful eyes to glisten once again/what savior rests while on his cross we die

4) Engines stop running, the wheat is growing thin/cause London is drowning

5) And the stars in the sky/don't mean nothing to you they're a mirror

6) I am a scratching on the windows of your soul

7) What was normal in the evening by the morning seems insane

8) All lovers young, all lovers must/all follow this (consign to thee) and come to dust.

9) Dawn breaks like a bull through the hall/And if you'd 'a took to me like a gull to the wind well I'd 'a jumped from a tree/And the rest of our lives would 'a fared well

10) Woh I want to know, where does the time go/ Woh I want to know, how does this song go?

11) Who loves the sun/who cares that it makes plants grow?

12) You were with that man they took away/I recognize your face

13) Bones sinking like stones/There's nothing here to run from/cause everybody here's got somebody to lean on

14) We keep on planting their bones in the ground but they won't grow/all we've got is a giant crop of names and dates

15) Love's a two-way dream/I am the tree that grows hearts

2006-01-30T17:44:00.000-05:00

ugh.

i feel terrible.

it hurts when i breathe and move and even a little when i am still, so this limits my actions quite severely.

BUT life has a bright side! After a month of slooow progress, FIVE FULL LENGTH Regina Spektor concerts have finished downloading. i am so happy about this.

things have been happening in extreme coincidence to each other recently, and its kind of discomforting because it shrinks life a lot. but it's also amazing to me too.

i got my report card today...4.250 GPA. Sha-zam.

2006-01-29T19:14:00.000-05:00

i want new headphones badly.

i found the ones i want but i have decided to ask for them for my birthday--because i think that would be a good idea, and i don't have much of anything to ask for.

but i really want to use them to listen to my new coldplay.

conundrum.

...i think i'll wait.

2006-01-29T17:55:00.000-05:00

caitlin and i hung out today.

we went to the mall--fun dip, greeting cards, rainy parking lots and trees--grass was unnatrually green and air was unnaturally mild considering it is midwinter.

lots of coldplay albums were lent to me.
all of them actually. and they're going onto the pod as i type.

i also almost accidentally bought a $40 t-shirt.
it was a cool t-shirt, in my defense.

2006-01-28T22:36:00.000-05:00

i've got exodus damage.

and i'm dying to read james frey.
and it doesn't matter at all for better or worse that he "lied" in his book.

psh.
i happen to like fiction, and when its told as though it were a truth, its infinitely more enrapturing. and, um, i actually *like* being enraptured, so mr. frey, keep lying and just fuck oprah and her "book club."

mall with melanie tonight--bought a hat, cologne, vogue (she bought it for me actually), and girl scout cookies.

defy gravity

2006-01-26T20:52:00.000-05:00

i never knew you could be this thoroughly exhausted with life.
i am unimpressed and ready for it to stop. at least in it's current form.

stop. go. walk here. drive there.
with nothing really human required of us.

and i hate teenagers, which shows how much Melanitis I am catching.

but Erin McKeown, via a friend mentioning her, proves to have given me a musical evening. thanks, Erin.

2006-01-25T17:44:00.001-05:00

planned parenthood is irresponsible.

nay, most teenagers are. which is why planned parenthood should not be giving out condoms at the parking lots at the Warped Tour.

they most certainly should continue to provide contraception, sexual information, and the like. i agree with planned parenthood's general motivation, and i wholeheartedly support the idea of empowering people (including minors) to make their own sexual decisions. however, i don't think most teens see a bowl of free condoms as a striking addition to their sexual liberation, and then go and make a serious decision. usually they think, "whoa, dude! free condoms! that means, like, i can have sex whenever i want and nothing, like, happens! dude, i'm gonna go have sex with my girlfriend! awesome!"

planned parenthood, wake up! 90% of teenagers are incapable of independent thought! and you want to encourage their sexual autonomy?? it's quite naive of you to think teens as a whole are clear-headed. for the most part, we're not. the teenager who just grabbed a Trojan from you is not going to be able to contemplate the emotional and relationship consequences of sex, and offering him or her what he or she sees as "get out of responsibility free" cards is not going to help him or her make a good decision about their sexual life.

granted, I am able to distinguish the role of condoms in sexual life, what they do and do not guarantee, allow, and protect--but as i go to school with them daily, i can say with confidence that most teenagers, and indeed probably most people in general, people cannot be believed to be capable.

so now, Planned Parenthood, I propose this: stop offering condoms everywhere except at your offices and in cafes, libraries, and Rufus Wainwright/Regina Spektor concerts-- this is where the teens capable of sexual choice are hanging out.

let the rest sit and masturbate.

word.

2006-01-24T19:57:00.000-05:00

I went out to see RENT again Monday night with Sean. It was fundiddilyumptous.

Today I was told that I got an A in AP Euro.

I don't know how.
It was my lowest grade on my mid-semester report.
But I did!

I got a B in Chemistry, though, and that made me sad because it reminded me that I am a tarnished star.

Also, I'm very excited for February. I have this feeling that it will be a very good month of my life. But maybe I'm just a ball of wishes and a bag of hopes.

my newest obsesssion is ISSAC on Style. It's a mediocre talk show with an overbearing host, and I love it so so much. Am I alone in my pursuit? Perhaps, but at least I'm color-coordinated.

2006-01-21T18:54:00.000-05:00

My room is in utter disarray, but surpisingly, I am not. which is odd because my emotional state is usually very tied to the state of my bedroom.

its not weird, it's feng shui.

i'm falling in love with rufus again. and i almost went out of the house wearing flip-flops and a scarf today--which i think is really cool and i am determined to do it sometime.

also, i decided that there are dozens of cool people in my vicinity, but not in my immediate presence, and i attribute this to an "uncool bubble" which unfortunately surrounds my body. it is fifty feet in circumference and blasts pop radio and takes on the least favorite color of whoever is looking at it.

and that's why i don't have any friends.

2006-01-20T16:36:00.000-05:00

I finalized my registration for the Harvard Tournament in february. There's no turning back now.

I'm terrified.
I have just under a month to become an orating god.
But I am also terribly excited....HARVARD.
Oh, shit, who am i kidding im absolutely horrified.

But I will prevail!!

Starbucks tonight at some time with Melanie. It should be fun.

<3 Elton John

2006-01-17T23:11:00.000-05:00

EXAM WEEK

today

math
ap european history

wednesday

french at 10:15 Am

thursday

chemistry (gasp) at 8:15 am

then i am free until tuesday i think.

score.

i've been watching waking life a lot recently and it's slowly blowing my mind.
movies rock.

2006-01-16T10:40:00.000-05:00

My weekend. Or, How My Life Sucks Except on Sunday.

friday

came home, ate a bunch of ice cream, and went to bed.
it was just one of those days.

saturday

negligable

sunday

saw Brokeback Mountain.
...oh my god.
It was absolutely brilliant and heartbreakng-- I've been thinking about it since I left the theatre, even today (first thought when I woke up).

Go see it. It's astounding and achingly beautiful.